|Dress: Handmade (Gather Kits Mortmain pattern, and Timeless Treasures fabric)|
|"Hello Ha" Heels: Irregular Choice|
I've been struggling with how to word this post, to be honest. It's been running through my head for most of the weekend. On Saturday morning I just basically collapsed in a heap in tears and didn't seem to be able to do very much at all. Massively unhelpful as I had so much to do over the weekend, not least trying to make some progress at work, which seems to be filling my every waking thought at the moment.
I guess it's inevitable that at some point, trying to do everything becomes less and less possible. The more things I agree to do, the more I've been feeling like I'm losing myself in all of the things which have a hold over my time. I'd love to see my friends at a weekend, but have to give it a miss as I've promised to help out with something or go to a county training day, or whatever. I know it's my own fault, but I can't seem to switch off and make time for myself anymore as I get consumed with guilt about the things which I feel as though I *should* be using my time for, instead of doing something fun.
I know this is a stupid feeling in some ways, because I've brought it on myself, but it's a struggle nonetheless and I can feel myself sort of teetering on the edge of what I know from past experiences is going to be a fairly bad low period. I've been looking for ways to try and de-stress - Rosie's post has lots of ideas which I'm going to try. Somehow I just have to get it into my head that time spent doing the things I'd like to do, isn't a waste, or a failure.
I did manage to cram a little bit of sewing in this weekend, as I find it calming, and spent a couple of hours making up this lion print Mortmain dress. It's my second Mortmain - the first one I've yet to wear but made the 3/4 sleeve version, whereas this one is sleeveless and I've finished the edges with bias binding instead of facings, as I prefer them. I still really like the waistband feature of this dress, and have been liking the chance to show of some of the vintage metal-teeth zips which Vix sent me, a long time ago!
How do you de-stress? More to the point, how do you manage how much stuff you take on?