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Tuesday, 3 January 2017

Here's to 2017..



Well. I didn't expect there to be quite so much Radio Silence around here for so long. I had long lists, and a mind swimming with ideas. And then some things happened. I'm still suffering with this cold, or virus, or whatever it might be. Getting a little tired of all of the coughing now.

I also allowed myself to get hurt - again - and am a little ashamed of how much of this festive break I've spent allowing myself to feel sad. A conversation with a friend who was going through something much tougher did kind of give me a bit of a kick, but I still felt overcome with the sickening, stomach-churning sadness feeling. That horrid thing where you wake up in the morning and you've forgotten, and then the sad thing comes back like a cloud.

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I've decided that I'm not letting myself wallow any longer, though. I've spent the last year finding my feet again after some big changes and I'm determined to make 2017 all about grabbing those opportunities, and making sure that I do the things I want to do. No more hesitation (that's a lesson to learn from recent events!) and a focus on the lovely things. I'm always told that I spend so much of my life doing things for other people and that I have to remember that it's okay to take some time for myself once in a while. I was getting a little better at that by the end of last year - weekends away with the sole intention of relaxing were very much needed and appreciated.

I've started thinking about my goals for the year. I'm a little behind, already as I'm sure most people have them all decided by now. But sometimes things take longer than you think. And I'm learning that that's okay. Sometimes, it's alright not to compare yourself to everyone else. There's no checklist which says you have to have certain things achieved by a certain time. And I'm finding my way back on track.

What's 2017 going to bring you?

4 comments:

  1. I hope that your year is everything you hope it will be. I'm so sorry that you were hurt and although you say your friend has been going through something worse, this is YOUR hurt and it feels rotten and intense for you. I wrote a blog post on this back on December, not sure if you read it or still read my blog, but the basic gist of it was that it is ok not to be happy at Christmas. I broke up with my ex before Chris just before Christmas and I was utterly miserable. To be honest, I felt lost about it for well over a year. Your pain is real and should be acknowledged.

    Anyway, I hope that this year is one you can love and relish and take the chances you are given for rest OR activity!
    Xxx

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  2. I'm not convinced January is a great time to set goals, anyway - it's too cold and dark and it's hard to keep any motivation up. Much better to set goals in spring, right?

    I hope 2017 is good to you. x

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  3. Happy New Year Char! I'm so sorry to hear you've been hurt this year and that things have been difficult - I really hope that 2017 is your year and that things brighten up for you. Wishing you all of the best and as always, I'm only ever a message away if you ever need someone to talk to. - Tasha

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  4. Char it struck me that you talk about "letting yourself..." several times here, and to echo what Kezzie said, I think sometimes it's not a case of that at all. If you're hurt then you're hurt - it's not some weakness on your part. I think sometimes you have to feel things in order to process them, even if it is painful at the time. Does that make sense? xxx

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