At the moment I feel quite stupid. I can't eat or sleep, all I can do is kick myself for being a naive idiot yet again, with regard to seeing people for what they really are, not who I want so badly to believe they are. I'm coming to realise that it's not likely that people will change, when you first meet them you go
through that first phase of getting to know all the important and lovely things about them, and you take that bit longer to realise that maybe there is more to them. Maybe all those little remarks are aimed at hurting you, maybe they aren't very good at
keeping promises after all, but you keep
on making excuses as it hurts less than seeing the reality, that they just don't care about you. That's how I feel at the moment. There comes a point where it's not possible to keep on making excuses for the way you're being treated, and I'm metally exhausted by it. I'm sick
of doing everything i can to try and help, and then being told it's wrong, or that I wasn't asked to/didn't have to. I think that if someone cared about you, they'd see when you needed help and do what they could, that's how friends work.
I don't think this person is my friend. I think they just like to hurt me, and I can't take it anymore. So day one of leaving them behind starts here, which is going to be difficult as I can't stop caring about them...I don't know what to do :(