Instead, an outfit post from my visit to my sister on Wednesday, and a few thoughts which have been swimming around in my head for the last few days.
|jumper: George@Asda // shoe boots: Primark|
|coat: H! by Henry Holland // bag: Laura Ashley vintage|
|dress: Cath Kidston // necklace: Primark|
|tights: Miss Selfridge|
I know I said that I'd enjoyed seeing my sister and catching up with her a little, and I did. She was ever so sweet and we went to new places instead of the old haunts, which helped a bit. I didn't spend all that much time with her as she's been working night shifts lately, so she was falling asleep by about lunchtime, and had to be at work again for 10pm. I felt really sorry for her, and a bit sad that I don't get to see her very often anymore and I guess that I miss her more than I realised. Maybe seeing someone for the first time in a while makes you remember how much you miss them?
And another thing. I stopped to see one of my friends on the way back. I've not seen her for months and I've really missed her. I don't regret going to see her at all. But here's where it gets a little more complicated. One of my closest friends is really unhappy about that. The two of them no longer speak and to be honest, I feel completely torn. I've said from the start that I don't want to take either side and I still don't. I don't want to cause anyone I care about any pain or upset, and I'm not naive enough to think that we will ever be a big group of friends again, in the future. But at the same time, I can't get my head around cutting someone out of my life because someone else has done that. (I find it hard enough to cut the people I really should do out of my own life). And, let's face it, given some of the relationship decisions I have a tendency to make, I'm definitely not in a position to judge anyone else's choices, and I try hard never to do so.
I don't really know what to do next.. I hope that I can stay friends with both parties, but I'm still refusing to take sides. Presumably, I can be selfish here and say that if they both care about me, they won't ask me to. Or is that naive as well? I'm not sure what to think anymore. Everything is not what it used to be. Story of my life, right? Relationships change over time; that's inevitable, right? So is it only right to assume the friendships will, as well?